This is my battle.

Been on a tumblr hiatus for almost half a year and now I’m back just to let it all out.

Maybe this can serve as my year-ender aside from the pictionary that I’ve planned and still planning to make though new year’s eve is so over! Such a lazy girl right here.

Maybe this blog will serve as a hint on how messed-up my life is right now. 

Maybe this blog will give you the permission to judge me and tell me that I’m nobody and I won’t be going anywhere.

Feel free to criticize, I can’t blame anyone ‘cos I myself have been battling with my own for quite sometime now.

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FOR SALE: CASIO DIGITAL WATCH

This is for pre- order :)

Message me through my ask box if you’re interested :)

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Atlantis

I know this is so late but let me share my thoughts and experience about this debacle. In my 21 years of existence, I have never experienced such panic until the recent monsoon.

I’ve been living in Malabon for 21 years now and yes, it is no longer new to us that during storms and heavy rains, most part of this city will be flooded. But in our case it is different, our barangay is one of the highest areas in Malabon and flood rarely happens to us.

ONDOY

During Ondoy, we weren’t really affected by the flood, well almost, but still it wasn’t that scary, in fact, I was able to rode a boat going to Navotas the night of the Ondoy. (Boat is a transpo from Mal-Nav and vice versa because you will cross a river)

PEDRING

Pedring has been a bitch, it landed in the areas near Manila Bay that’s why Malabon was really affected and the water in the dams was released due to continuous heavy rains, yes we are affected by the flood this time but still it is only ankle deep.

These two STORMS greatly affected several areas in the Philippines, a lot of people died and a lot of people are left homeless.

But recently, a MONSOON came and this is the worst experience I have ever encountered. Our house is only bungalow with a mezzanine in one room. The mezzanine’s actually my room and it served as the place where we put the tv and all the things that are needed to be saved. We had no choice but to transfer to my best friends house. The street going there was also flooded, though, but at least, they’re house is high enough. Everyone of us wasn’t prepared for it, we don’t have enough food to eat thus, we ended up claiming relief goods from the city hall. I don’t wanna elaborate things. After all, what’s important is that we’re all alive and safe.

No matter how difficult it is to live in Malabon, this is HOME.

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Uncertain.

Sometimes I ask myself, am I really in the right place? Is it really for me? and today is one of those days.

When I was a kid, I wanted to be a doctor. I don’t know, I love the smell of the hospital and it feels different being inside. As time goes by I realized I’m doing good in Social Science subjects which made me want to pursue a course related to it and I’ve taken-up Asian Studies. I’ve been happy during college and enjoyed what I’ve learned. Taking-up law crossed my mind for so many times but I’m afraid I can’t handle it. Now I am working as a research analyst. I am enjoying my work though it is stressful and like what I’ve said everything seems so raw to me. There are times where I am going home and still thinking about what I did at work and worrying if it’s wrong, especially those where money’s involved but I’m now starting to get along with the people and other officers and yes, I can say that I’m happy but still, there is a part of me that wanted to explore.

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Sideline :)

I am currently working for Odesk (aside from my real job which is in AFP), it is an online job where you are going to apply for a job of your choice depending on your skills. As for me, I applied as an Article writer on my first job and earned instant US$5 for a 500- word article with the topic “How to get your ex boyfriend back”. I’ve decided to work on this because of the possible high income and you can really manage your time. A friend told me about this and she already earned $400 in just a month. It is good for fresh graduates who doesn’t have a job yet and for housewives. As for students you can do this on weekends and/or your free time. 

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Bipolar weather

It makes me sick! It’s raining intermittently for the past days and I guess it’s the same reason why I got colds. One moment it’s raining and then next here comes  Mr. Sun peeking. I have never been compliant to medicines/vitamins which is basically the same reason why I can’t recover fast/ easily get sick.

It is only now that I feel a little better from my colds and fever, thanks to bioflu! I only took it once yesterday but I am now feeling good.

Cannot be sick now ‘cause it’s just my first week at work. Must start to be compliant in taking vitamins!

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21 years of existence.

Enough of tumblr hiatus! Sorry for not updating my tumblr. (As if I have lots of followers) meh. Hahaha! I’ve been very busy looking for a job that’s why.

Anyway, yesterday was my 21st birthday! I know I don’t look like 21 hihi :p I’ve been thinking of what to do on my birthday since June and I have decided to have some “me time” since June has been a stressful month! From job hunting and fixing lots of life issues. So here are some pictures from my “me time”.

Pampered myself at David’s Salon. Had Intense repair hair treatment and maniped then went straight to Trinoma walked around, bought happy lemon and taco bell ♥

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Yeahmeeen!!!

Familiar faces? *ding ding ding ding ding* Boys Night Out!! :)

Was browsing through my Facebook albums and saw pictures from Carla’s debut.

Been listening to BNO since we were in 2nd year college. Back then, we (Nalaine and I) used to ride with Carla when going home. Sometimes we go on a drinking sesh then go home together because Carla always have a “sundo”. So while we’re on our way home we always listen to BNO. “Samantha on the phoonneee” Samantha’s part always make me smile. Yes, she’s the traffic/weather forecaster with a very seductive voice!! I don’t know, but I find it really unique, relaxing and cool. Weird no? A lot of people are already listening to them, most of them are young- adults because they can relate to the topics that are being talked about in the radio show.

Anyway, BNO hosted Carla’s 18th birthday party and they’re really great!! It’s like you’re watching them doing their radio show. BNO na BNO lang :) I believe they were the one who hosted Carla’s sister’s debut too.

So here are some other pictures of BNO during Carla’s night back in 2009 :)

With the Cotillion boys

With us. Please excuse my UPOD BANGS.

With Carla :)

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Happy Birthday, Vhest! :)

Yesterday was Vhest’s 21st birthday. I just want her to know how much we miss her… I know you’re watching over us, Vhest :)

Dear Vhest,

Happy 21st birthday!!! It’s been 8 years (turning 9) and I want you to know that we’ve never forgotten you. We are continuously fighting for your justice and we’re always here for your mom, dad and sister. You know how much I love and miss you and how thankful I am to have met you. God didn’t give us a lot of time to be together but in that short span of time, we managed to build a friendship that even death can’t separate. I know you’re just here and you can see everything. What we have achieved is not only for our parents but also for you and your family. Will always pray for you… Someday, In God’s time, we’ll see each other again… I love you and I miss you so much!

Love, Effer.

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Now I know…

Why you’re like that. You never really had “friends”.. Oh yes you do! but admit it, it’s not the kind of friendship you’ve been longing to have that’s why you ended up copying the people around you just to fit in. Just to be “cool”. Girl, stop trying and show yourself. You turned out to be the woman you said you won’t be.

You don’t know what damage you’ve caused. Everybody walked away from you because you pushed them. Reflect, your pride won’t get you anywhere. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING.

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